Pero hanggang dito na lang
I’ve been shouting to the whole world that I love her, both literately and figuratively. Yet, why can’t I say it in front of her.
Because those words, even though it can bring happiness, can bring the heart to the wringer. Even though those words can bring two people together, I can also mean a goodbye forever.
The fear is that she does not feel the same to you. A sane person would never assume that the feeling was already mutual just after a few meetings, given that he only occupy a miniscule in her train of thoughts.
Hindi naman ikaw mawawala. Dahil alam kong mawawala ka kapag sinabi ko na mahal kita. I’m hers already, even though she was not keeping me. Will she claim me someday? This big catch? Consider this already her honor. Hahaha
Hanggang dito na lang ba ako? The signs were already indicating that it was. I have to accept that I have this supposed shameful one-sided love. But still, I can love her all I want. I’ll wait even it means forever. I’ll endure. I’ll endure all of this pain with the hope that someday she would look back to finally see me following her. If I’ll love more, it will work, right?