Last Thursday, I met my friend who used to be my classmate on Span 10, which is where I became classmates with Myrtle. That classmate of mine, Don Paulo Navarro, asked me out of the blue:
“Kamusta na kayo ni Myrtle?” (How things are going between you and Myrtle now?)
I just bowed my head, unable to give an answer. Seeing my inability to answer, he gave me a sage yet too late advice:
“Huwag mong isipin na siya na ang the one, yung forever. Mahihirapan ka lang kapag nagkahiwalay kayo. “(Don’t think of her as the one for you, your forever companion and love. You will just have a hard time when you became separated to her.)
That hurts…A LOT. I know I can move on if I know it wasn’t my fault. But it is my fault. It is of my own doing that made me lost her forever.
Why don’t I try to find somebody else to help me? I just can’t. Every time I try to catch the light, fate throws me back to the darkness.