Hey. I know that you are heartbroken right now, but you must stay strong. There are others who look up on you. There are others who admires you. There are others who harbor feelings to you, with you not knowing. To them, what you are feeling is contagious. If you smile at them and they see that you are happy, they would smile for the rest of the day. If they happen to cross paths with you and they see th gloominess out of you, their spirits will be dampened for the rest of the day: they will think on what things are perturbing you. They…uhmm… we tend to exponentiate your state of mind, when we see you.
You must be strong. Even if it hurts, suck it and pretend it does not hurt, and your grace will inspire us to persevere and strive through greater hardships. You must think that it is not an end for your happiness, but rather fate’s determination to lead you to greater happiness, which you deserve the most. Yep, he was the one to you, but to most of them(mine is a different case), you are the only one to them, the one they admired the most.
Even though, you are now single, we won’t dare.
We know the gap is too big.
We are underachieved to deserve to just be with someone like you.
It is like Heaven and Earth.
And yet, even though as lowly as Earth as we are, we still look up to the heaven, to you. Flowers bloom from the Earth, at your mere presence. How lucky is that parch of land, and how blessed is that land that you are touching all the time: It must be the Garden of Eden!
In my case, you are my light amidst the darkness at the moment. I am just watching you from afar wanting to comfort you for we are in the same situation and I was still devastated, even after five years, which led me to this darkness. If fate allows, I can be a friend. And if fate allows more, I could make a move on you, which I think will put me one with the gods and near to heaven.
Even though it is a mere fantasy, I will not be saddened by the thought. I will soon be tired looking up on you, and will settle on somebody else, just like what happened in all crushes to. That is how crushes are. Just like to Nikka’s, to Maureen’s, to Jeju’s and to other crushes that I admired along the way. It will just be a cloud who will pass by.
To cheer you up a bit, just meeting you gives me the motivation to pursue my dreams more. That brings the best out of me. That thought leads me out of darkness.
I am working at my best, so that someday, you will be then proud that we had the connection. You are that special, Hessen Noreen Castillo. So, cheer up. 😀