That is the thing I wanted to say, this December 7, to the person that gave me a helping hand during the one of the darkest chapters of my life. Please Fate, don’t make me put a ‘yet’ on the end of that sentence. 🙂
“Tang Ina Mo, lubayan mo na ako!” meaning, “Son of a bitch, leave me for good!” is the cruelest of things that the person you pursue would say to you.
It happened just a week after the most disappointing day I’ve ever had with that person. You can imagine yourself, alone, in an unexplored land, hoping someone special would join with me and have a splendid adventure. But, that someone did not came.
My thoughts, self-esteem, mood and confidence were in the dumps. I’ve been thinking back them, “why that special someone did that?”
I’ve no clues back then. Everything was dark. And I was alone.
That was until the moment when a person, in the name of Athena, came to my life.
She helped me forget that person, even though it wasn’t her intention.
She helped me forget that October 14 date, the event which I thought would never forget.
Her smile made me forget that person’s smile.
Her eyes made me forget that person’s eyes.
No matter how hard I’m trying to remember, I’ll always forget. No matter how hard I’m trying to forget, I’ll always remember. That is how a human heart is.
But on Athena’s actions and reactions, I realized that, that person doesn’t exist in my life anymore.
And based on what happened between us, I’ve realized that I was the one at fault here and also on what happened in the past.
Without her intentions and knowledge, she became a light in the dark. She gave me the path which I will take.
I’m in the bliss now, already happy with my special someone. It is all thanks to someone, although unintentionally.
I feel a little bit sad that we have to part. But I know it was my fault again.
I’m dedicating this post to someone who earned my appreciation and admiration.
I know I’m forever in debt to her deeds. Although she did not know that she approached me at the time that my life seemed to be the darkest.
I have a little crush on you. I will always remember that a person who is 5’3 tall, who always wears jeans and a slightly tight t-shirt, who has decorated fingernails, who wears colorful and cute shoes, who have an ideal body figure, whose way of walking is very memorable, who rarely talks and who has a very memorable smile.
I’m wishing you luck and caution. There are a lot of dangers for someone as beautiful as you.
As you are nearing the end of your pursuit of happiness, by the help of your friends and that special someone you treasure, always remember to thank our Mighty Father who made it happen and set-up our meeting.
Just remember Athena, always smile. You’re the most beautiful when you do.
Don’t let the hardships of college life prevent you from being happy. But by triumphing over them, you will also be happy.
This is Joshua, wishing you luck, encouragement and happiness this college life.